depression self help

What are your experiences with depression / self harm or suicide?
Say what you want. Therapy … Hospital …. Anything? Perhaps when you were younger, teenage years?
I'm fifteen, and I suffer with bipolar, who had been suffering from depression, but the bipolar is triggered when I broke up with my boyfriend that I was one year. two or three months afterward, was admitted to Bethlem psychiatric hospital after taking an overdose, where I stayed as an inpatient for three months, was in the hopsital that formally diagnosed me with bipolar disorder and put on a drug called quatiapene and lamotrigine, which stablisers mood .. nine months after that, tried to hang myself and not subsequently admitted to another hospital in London, where I stayed for four months. I've been cutting / burning myself for less than two years (about time he was diagnosed with depression) I was also referred a counselor when I was diagnosed with depression, later referred me to a psychologist in the same department because I had panic attacks every time I had to go see the counselor, because the voices in my head told me I could read my thoughts. I was very fragile right now and could not cope with this, I'm still looking hallucinations psychologist once or twice a week. I also had visual and audital that have cooled much now, but still appear every time and again, also suffers of insomnia, but the medication that my mood stableises help with this. Hope you enjoyed the story lol
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